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Jonathan Lopez shares his story on Normalize Psychedelics

Injured Soldier’s Path: From Pain Pill Addiction To Rediscovering Himself With Psychedelics || Jonathan Lopez

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Summary of Jonathan’s story

Jonathan Lopez, a United States Army veteran, shares his personal story of overcoming physical and emotional trauma. After sustaining severe injuries, including the loss of his arm and traumatic brain injury, Jonathan struggled with addiction to pain medication and even attempted suicide. Rediscovering purpose through his involvement with the veteran community, he later found profound healing in a transformative psychedelic retreat using ayahuasca. This experience helped him forgive himself and others, enhancing his relationships and leading him to provide support to his peers.  Jonathan continues his journey by working with Healing Frontline Heroes and connecting with indigenous tribes to promote holistic and tribal medicine, while advocating for the importance of integration and peer support. 

I was able to forgive myself, forgive other ones and just be able to live free
-Jonathan Lopez

  

Watch: Injujured Soldier’s Path: From Pain Pill Addiction to Rediscovering Himself With Psychedelics

Tell us about your experience leaving the military and finding psychedelics

Jonathan:
My name is Jonathan Lopez. I’m a United States Army Veteran, and I’m also the Outdoor Programs Coordinator and Peer Support Specialist for Healing Frontline Heroes. I had a pretty good life growing up. I was very loved by my grandmother. I left home early. Joined the military at 17, went down the pipelines, infantry school, airborne training, graduate indoctrination program, all the way through special forces selection.

Unfortunately I was injured while I was stationed in Germany, and fell without a purpose for a while.  I’ve never really been into drugs, like it’s not my thing, and  all of a sudden,  I  started taking a large amount of pain medication. 

I lost my arm, had multiple injuries to my left leg, traumatic brain injury.

I was involved in a really bad accident, and  I just wanted to mask the pain to be able to get back up again.  now I know that actually the pain wasn’t as much physical as it was emotional. But, nonetheless, I,  became addicted to pain pills. It was, took me down a very, dark spiral.

A few years later ended up in a suicide attempt.  

After that,  I became very involved, once again, with the military, our veteran community. I  started  doing a lot of obstacle course races to help  endurance races, ran a skydive program for veterans

When 2020 hit, There were no more activities.  And we were losing people left and right. And I lost someone that was really, close to me.

I knew there was something that needed to be done.  I heard of psychedelics.  A good friend had offered  me a spot in a retreat for ayahuasca. Never heard that word before.

Jonathan’s First Ayahuasca Experience

A friend’s invitation to an ayahuasca retreat sparked curiosity, despite initial skepticism. Jonathan’s first experience with ayahuasca opened doors he had long kept locked, allowing him to confront and release deep-seated guilt and pain. This experience led to a profound sense of forgiveness towards himself and others, including his father and late former partner.

What changes did Jonathan make after the ayahuasca experience

Jonathan emphasizes the importance of integration post-retreat. For him, this meant mending his strained relationship with his father and reconnecting with his children’s maternal family. He realized that healing is not just a personal journey but involves restoring broken connections.

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How Bufo Alvarius Helped Me Beat Fentanyl Addiction and Create ‘Music With A Purpose’

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Full Interview with Nate Ostrowski at the bottom of the page

Nathan Ostrowski, a Navy veteran from Tucson and founder of Music With a Purpose Tucson, shares his journey from addiction to recovery and purpose.

For 35 years, he lived in “chaos” without direction, using alcohol and drugs to avoid his issues. During COVID, his fentanyl addiction led to two suicide attempts. After surviving, he committed to change and entered detox.

Watch: Navy Veteran’s Journey with 5-MEO-DMT – Fentanyl, Grieving Loss, & Finding Purpose

https://youtu.be/xaxMhsaG2lo?si=ZA18u3y-pK9f-Vxx

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 For me, once I found that self love, I found my purpose. I couldn’t be more thankful for the Seri tribe and for Mexico.
-Nate

Read: How Bufo Alvarius Helped Me Beat Fentanyl Addiction and Create ‘Music With Purpose’

Two months into recovery, Nathan met Michael at a drum circle, leading to his introduction to Bufo (5-MeO-DMT from the Sonoran Desert toad). In Mexico, he had a transformative experience he describes as a “baptismal rebirth,” helping him find peace and self-love. When his sister later died from fentanyl, he turned to medicine again rather than relapsing, processing his grief in just five days.

“The natural DMT. That’s where it is. That’s where you can tap into yourself and who you are and have a different understanding of why we’re here.”

These experiences transformed Nathan from a self-described selfish person to someone dedicated to helping others. He founded Music With a Purpose Tucson, which hosts reggae concerts to fund healing experiences for veterans in Mexico with the Seri tribe. So far, they’ve sent four veterans. Nathan believes people shouldn’t wait for the “right headspace” to seek help, as waiting keeps them trapped. He sees reggae music as inherently healing and unifying, using it to create healing opportunities for others.

Q&A With Nate

How did your addiction escalate to fentanyl and what happened as a result?

When COVID happened, I hit a real rough point, still struggling with addiction and, just let the struggle get the best of me. My addiction led to, you know, me doing fentanyl and getting hooked on that, and that started a real big spiral downhill. I was looking for that one that would just take all my problems away. And in that spiral, the final straw was just, miserable with my life stuck in that cycle and the lowest of lows. So, I tried to take the easy way out and take a bunch and not wake up and, tried it twice. And it’s funny cause every morning I woke up the next morning I was pissed. It was like, damn, it didn’t work.

What was your experience trying Bufo (5-MeO-DMT) for the first time?

Two months into my recovery, I was introduced to Bufo. I put it off for a long time. I kept using life excuses to try to hinder me from what the real work I needed to do. This is one of those things where Mike showed up at the park and said, ‘Hey, we’re going to go do this.’ And I said, ‘Oh shit. Are we? I’m not ready,’ but when are we ever ready? So I’m thankful we went to a park, middle and just a big open field.

I could just imagine if people were looking at us, what they were seeing, like, what are those guys doing? And instantly I knew it’s what I needed. So three weeks later, I was down in Mexico. And that was the life changing moment for me. My most profound experience was on Sunday. We went across to their island and a shark island. And my Sunday ceremony was floating in the ocean. It was one of the most beautiful, unexplainable experiences, but the best way I’d describe it is it was my baptismal rebirth. It was a cleansing of everything that I was running from, and when everything was said and done, I felt peace and I felt self love.

What is Music With a Purpose Tucson and how did it start?

I knew this changed my life. And I talked about previously being selfish. One thing I learned is selfish doesn’t get you anything. Being selfless is more rewarding. And I knew this changed my life. So I’m like, how can I create an opportunity to help other people get this experience? So I’ve always been big into music. I love reggae music. So that’s where the concept of music with the purpose of Tucson came into play. The whole vision is to provide a space where the community at Tucson can come together to help a veteran.

Why do you focus specifically on reggae music for your events?

For me, I’m a reggae guy. For me, reggae brings all walks of life together. That’s one of the beautiful things I get feedback from. You know, at a reggae show I got everything from those hippies to motorcycles to motorcycle clubs. It brings a wide variety and reggae music is about unity. And for me personally, I don’t, there’s not a lot of genres that have that unity. So that’s why I love reggae. Reggae saved my life.

Watch the full interview with Nate Ostrowksi​

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Navy Veteran’s Journey With Alcoholism and Psychedelic Healing || Gringo

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Gringo, a 53-year-old Navy veteran, shares his transformative journey with psychedelics, particularly Bufo and ayahuasca, which helped him overcome years of depression, alcoholism, and suicidal tendencies. Introduced to psychedelics by his motorcycle club president, Gringo describes the profound impact of these substances in addressing his mental health challenges. He emphasizes the importance of community support and encourages others struggling with similar issues to explore alternative healing methods. Through his experiences, Gringo champions the potential benefits of psychedelics despite societal skepticism.

What was life like before psychedelics?

My name is Gringo. I’m a 20 year Navy vet. while I was in the Navy, I served on a nuclear powered submarines, retired in 2009. after I retired in 2009, I went into the federal government until I was medically retired two years ago.

I was meant to retire because of a, botched neck surgery and it gave me a little bit of a C5 palsy and I’ve lost a lot of, strength in my, arm right here. So I am no longer, working anymore. Before psychedelics, I lived in a dark place. It was, I was very, dark. It was, I alienated myself from people.

I drank a lot. I self medicated. I would look in the mirror. I didn’t like what I saw. I ended up drinking myself till I liked what I saw. And then when I liked what I saw, I had drank too much. By the time the rest of it caught up, I was pissed off that I was going through this.

I had a lot of suicidal ideations.

I was ready to check out.

How did you find psychedelics?

I found psychedelics through the president of our motorcycle club. He came down to Mexico, down in Cabo one time and he did some ayahuasca. he kept trying to sell it to me, but after you’ve been through the, the mental health program and the VA, it’s hard to think anything helps.

But he convinced me and I went down to Hermosillo and we did, it was an awakening. It wasn’t stuff that I wanted to see, but it was stuff that I needed to see. It changed because it made me aware. I was really scared afterwards. I did a lot of crying. Crying probably about a week every day. I didn’t know how to process it very well because there was a lot of stuff that I couldn’t run from.

I couldn’t run from once I was under the medicine. I couldn’t run from it and it brought to light where my issues were and I’ve never seen anything like that. It left me scared. It left me happy. It’s just, it was just a weird feeling.

How were you able to process difficult emotions?

The family I come from, it’s hard to talk about your problems because we’re under the, we’re under the thought that if you don’t talk about it, you don’t exist and you hide a lot of things. so it was really hard to talk to people, but the guys, my motorcycle club who did it with me, Chris, who has also been interviewed and my president chaos, we all went through it together.

So it was very easy. for me to talk to them because we have all experienced it. It was, it’s not like talking to some doctor or somebody on the street where nobody knows your experience. But the guys who were there with me and we went through it, it was easy for me to ask questions and do the experience with them and have them help me guide me through.

I think the community is very important because people are going through things for different reasons, but you always need support. And one thing that I found in this community is the support everybody, even if you’ve never met somebody and you go through a ceremony, when you come back, it’s like, they’re part of the family, the connection is there.

And it’s somebody who you can express yourself to, and you can talk to, and the stuff that you couldn’t talk to people before you could talk to them because you’ve experienced the connection. You’ve got the connection, you got the bond.

Speak on the stigma surrounding psychedelics

People talk what they don’t understand. You got a lot of people who are the old guard, and they don’t want to believe in this, but this medicine’s been around for thousands of years. It’s not like it just came out of a pharmacy. this has been around. People have used it. Native Americans, Native people to whatever country they’re from, they have their own brand of medicine, spiritual medicine.

People need to try it before they say anything or they make judgment. A lot of people, if you remember last year, they made fun of Aaron Rogers for doing his ayahuasca ceremony. And people were talking around it’s a joke.

And I knew exactly what he was doing, and people want to get run in their mouth and they don’t know what to do. So I was very encouraged by that. We need more people to speak up just to the naysayers because there’s a lot of people who do this medicine.

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Psychedelics Helped Veteran Ditch 16 Medications || Chris Leisinger

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Chris Leisinger, a retired army vet and former scout sniper, shares his profound journey of healing from PTSD with the help of psychedelics after 12 years of service and three tours in Iraq. He explains how traditional medications from the VA left him emotionally numb and suicidal until an encounter with psychedelics, facilitated by his motorcycle club, changed his life. Psychedelics helped veteran ditch 16 medications and Chris is here to share his story.

We signed up to defend our country writing a check to include our life. And the VA they just want to throw pharmaceutical meds at you and it makes you emotionally numb.

-Chris

Summary

Chris now collaborates with Mike Manion and Healing Frontline Warriors, helping other veterans through ceremonies in Mexico where they provide free psychedelic treatments. Chris describes personal experiences and transformations and emphasizes the importance of reaching out for help, underscoring that it’s okay not to be okay.

 

Watch: How Psychedelics Helped a Veteran STOP Depending On Pills

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cFK2h3PeIT0

 

What condition were you in after leaving the military?

My name is Chris Leisinger. I’m a retired army vet of 12 years. I was a scout sniper for those 12 years. I did 3.5 years in Iraq. 16 different psych meds from the VA, as a matter of fact. 6 of them were to treat the PTSD. The other 10 were to treat the side effects of that.

I was on 16 different psych meds from the VA. 6 of them were to treat the PTSD. The other 10 were to treat the side effects of that.

Life before psychedelics was rough. I was emotionally numb. I didn’t care about anything. I actually tried to kill myself once. And my 230 pound Mastiff Repo stopped me from doing it. And when I say stop me, I had the gun in my lap. He picked it up, carried it to the back fence, dropped it in the dirt, and then sat on it.

And then when I reached to grab it, he growled and snapped at me and then coward like I was going to beat him. That was my big, aha, wake up moment through my motorcycle club, Roland Locos. That’s what got me into the psychedelics. And it changed my life. It helped rewire my brain. So that I’m off all the meds.

I can actually enjoy life again. I’m not angry. I’m actually probably one of the calmest individuals there is. It used to, I didn’t go to Walmart unless it was like three or four in the morning. Cause if you bumped into me, I’m ripping your head off because I was just so uneasy. I was so agitated, so angry.

How many ceremonies have you been a part of?

I’ve done 16 to 20 different ceremonies to the point now. I can actually help facilitate and help other people. I can dive into people’s psyche and help them clear the cobwebs. Or as I like to say, wake up from the matrix.

I’ve done mushrooms, I’ve done ayahuasca, I’ve done bufo, which is from the Sonoran Desert Toad.

I’ve done mushrooms, I’ve done ayahuasca, I’ve done bufo, which is from the Sonoran Desert Toad.

On helping your Veteran brother overcome alocohol addiction

My little brother, John, he was a Marine. He was field artillery and he had a lot of trauma. And he finally told me one day, and he was against drugs. He didn’t even smoke weed. He was like, that’s just not my thing.

He came up to me one day and said he was ready to go for a spirit walk. And I set it up with Big Mike and it completely changed his life. I pulled the gun out of his mouth at one point because he had a bad alcohol problem. Not anymore. Now he just drinks recreational and has fun with it. But two words is what changed his life. I told him to go left.

I pulled the gun out of his mouth at one point because he had a bad alcohol problem. Not anymore.

In our ceremony, him and I are both Norse Pagan. He said everything to his right was just dark and cold and creepy, but everything to the left was Valhalla. It was a feast. It was everybody he loved, everybody he cared about. And I told him, go left. That’s what he needed to hear as something as simple as two words changes someone’s life.

That’s why I’m a big advocate of it. I’m down to help anybody and everybody that needs it. I always tell people, like, three or four days afterwards, you’re going to start getting these serendipity moments, where things just start connecting, and things you didn’t realize before.

A message to other veterans who are struggling

I would tell them, you’re not alone. And one of the things I’ve told people, it’s okay to not be okay. I was a scout sniper where I was told, unless you’re dying, you don’t go to sick call. If you’ve got a sore knee, you just suck it up and drive on. And that’s part of the reason why I’m 100 percent disabled through the VA now.

Because that’s what the Army, Marines, the Air Force, that’s what they condition your mind to do. And, when people think they’re alone, they’re not.

And, when people think they’re alone, they’re not.

I was always told going to sick call was a weakness. It’s not a weakness, it’s taking care of you. Because when you’re out, you’re out. The Army, the Marines, the Air Force, it doesn’t slow down.

You’re easily replaced. The Army didn’t slow down. They had someone to fill my shoes and take my spot. Maybe they were as good as me, maybe they were better, maybe they were worse. But they didn’t slow down.

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Michael Manion shares his story on Normalize Psychedelics

Veteran Healing With Seri Comcaac Nation in Mexico || Michael Manion

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Summary of Experience

Michael Manion, a retired first sergeant and founder of Healing Frontline Heroes Mexico, shares his transformative experiences with psychedelics, particularly mushrooms and bufo which helped him overcome post-military trauma and suicidal tendencies.

Inspired by his profound healing, Michael relocated to Arizona, connected with the Seri Comcaac Nation in Mexico and delved deeper into psychedelic therapies. Michael advocates for indigenous knowledge and highlights the importance of thorough medical screening and integration support for participants. Finally, his organization plans to expand into 30-day residential programs to offer a comprehensive healing process tailored to individual needs.

Watch: US Army Veteran heals suicidal tendenices with traditional Medicine deep in Mexico

https://youtu.be/9yLvTSOnZSY

Michael leaves the military

I am a 22 year army veteran, retired first sergeant and founder and director of Healing Frontline Heroes Mexico. Five years after the military, I was damn near 300 pounds and drinking and emotionally disconnected from myself, from my family and everything around me, just lacking purpose and suicidal.

Five years after the military, I was damn near 300 pounds and drinking and emotionally disconnected from myself, from my family and everything around me, just lacking purpose and suicidal.

My military service I ended up doing a total of 22 years. I retired in 2013. I was a combination of active duty and reserve deployment time that I spent in the military. When I left the military, it was a few years later that all of those things, just started really crashing down on me.

And I eventually found my way to plant medicine. I relocated from Atlanta, Georgia out to Arizona and I met some people that the Rollin Locos Motorcycle Club and the guys in that club are all the majority of them are combat vets and they’ve all found the the road to healing through the psychedelics.

At that point in my life, I would have tried anything to make me just feel better, just feel connected to something or back to myself. And these guys started talking about psychedelics and things like that. And I had no point of reference for it. I felt that was just stuff that a bunch of crazy people did, a bunch of hippies and whatever else.

Michael’s first psychedelic experience

The very first ceremony that I ever did was mushrooms. And that mushroom journey led into a bufo journey the next morning facilitated by a guy up in Phoenix, good guys can doing great work up there.

And that was my point of introduction to the medicine. That very first ceremony. It was just every emotional aspect of my life and it brought it all to a place where I could understand it. I could see it and I could feel it. It wasn’t easy. I cried all night, and plenty more nights after that one.

But it was the ability to feel those emotions and process them in a way that I never had that allowed me to know that it showed me that, Hey man, everything’s going to be okay. You just have to lean into some of that pain because right on the other side of it is the true joy that you’re here to experience.

You just have to lean into some of that pain because right on the other side of it is the true joy that you’re here to experience.

That deep, dark place is absolutely where you find your answers. You have to lean into that darkness to be able to find the abundance and the joy and the happiness and everything that’s right on the other side of it.

On the Veteran Suicide Crisis

If we’re being honest about it, the majority of the people who joined the military are fighting forces made up of a lot of people who, when they leave home, they’re running away from something.I was a recruiter at one time too. So I understand exactly why people do these things.

But again sometimes we leave home with a bag full of stuff over this shoulder that’s unaddressed and never touched. And then you run off, you think you’re going to run away from something, but what you’re running to is going to give you a bag full of shit that’s 20 times worse than what’s already in this one.

And then when you’re done with it all, there’s nobody there to help you unpack either one of those bags. And when you decide you want some help, if you can make that decision because That’s driven into us the whole time that you’re there. You can’t lead troops from sick call, Sarge, right?

And when you do finally get to the point where you feel like you can ask for some help and you run down to your local VA, the help they’re going to give you is going to be a death pill cocktail that’s going to make you want to kill yourself 10 times more than you did when you started and that’s the norm.

the help the VA is going to give you is going to be a death pill cocktail that’s going to make you want to kill yourself 10 times more than you did when you started

Our veterans are out there killing themselves at a rate of 22 to 50 a day.

And we know they lie about numbers. And that’s just the veterans. The total number of people killing themselves in the United States is 500- 600 more a day

Watch: Exposing the Crisis: Veteran Suicide and the VA’s Role

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Dan and Lorri full interview

Bufo Alvarius, Discovering Psychedelics After 60 || Dan & Lorri

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Meet Dan and Lorri

Dan was a Fundamental Baptist Pastor for a big chunk of his life and Lorri was a mother who suffered from depression for much of her life. Dan and Lorri both had life transforming psychedelic experiences that they agreed to share with us. We were eager to listen.

Discovering psychedelics after 60 with Dan and Lorri

Watch “Spiritual Awakening with Bufo Alvarius”

I come from an Ohio Baptist fundamental background, and my father was a pastor and I was a pastor as well, a fundamental pastor in New York City and Las Vegas.
-Dan Sabaka

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tc2flAakTsg

Watch “Mother Using Plant Medicine: Lorri describes her experience with Bufo Alvarius”

The medicine acted as nature’s electroshock therapy and cured me of depression, a lifetime of depression.
-Lorri

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hqDvJfO_kT0

Watch the full interview with Dan & Lorri

https://vimeo.com/875286332?share=copy

What do you do for the community?

Lorri
I’m from Olympia, Washington, and we would like to start a psychedelic integration circle there. So we’ve come to the Port Townsend Society Circle a time or two to find out how they conduct their circles. But anyway, we’ve come here to learn from those who have gone a little farther ahead in the process than we have as far as integration and decriminalization. We’re interested in all of those fronts, but especially with integration.

How does it feel to be able to be in an open room and just openly talk about psychedelics?

Dan
It’s kind of a hearth, a home kind of feeling.

We were just speaking with the couple and I just witnessed lots of folks who are dying to have someone listen to their experience. And because experience is such a dynamic thing to be able to share with someone listening back is pretty prolific and beyond the clinical just somebody to listen and say, ‘Yeah, I’ve done that, you know, I connect to that.’

That’s pretty cool.

I come from an Ohio Baptist fundamental background, and my father was a pastor and I was a pastor as well, a fundamental pastor in New York City and Las Vegas.

-Dan

And I moved to Olympia about three years ago. And I’m 68 right now.

How did you come to the plant medicines?

Lorri
Well, my first significant psychedelic experience was ayahuasca.

In 2017, my son and I had sort of a private ceremony, which was amazing, life changing. But the real kicker was the Bufo in 2020. And I did that because my oldest daughter had done it and recommended that I do it as well, and in fact bought me a session for Mother’s Day.

And so I came at it from an entirely different direction than most people do. My child who was recommending to her mother that she have this experience.

The medicine acted as nature’s electroshock therapy and cured me of depression, a lifetime of depression.
-Lori

And that was not an expectation going in. I just went in wide open to receive whatever it was I was going to receive from that sacrament, medicine or tool, whatever you want to call it.

And it took a little while for me to realize a few months later that I was free of depression after a lifetime of depression.

What plans do you have for your community?

Lorri
We’re creating Integration Circle in Olympia where other people who have just had not just a bufo experience, but any kind of psychedelic experience. They can come and share that with other people who have had those kinds of life altering experiences as well.

And for me it’s been more of an unfolding. The first experience was just an explosion. It unfolded as the weeks and months went by and it would have been nice to have a community to talk to.

Luckily, I have Dan and our soul sister, and the three of us helped each other integrate.

I would say we’re trying to create a safe, soft place to land after we’ve had one of these just paradigm shifting experiences.

Bufo is only about 10 minutes. It is called the business person’s psychedelic because you can literally do it on your lunch hour and go back to work, but you will be transformed. And it is nice to have a place to go where you can talk about that transformation.

Dan
Mother Earth has all this capacity to connect with this human condition that is filled with consciousness and filled with all this beauty and wonder.

I believe that Mama Earth knows the way as I know my way.
-Dan

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